CURHATAN HATI

Aku sudah berumur 24yo.
Masih kuliah :(....well its not a bad thing. But if you look at most of people already get a permanent job at the age of 18. But meeehh....well i have a nice job that i love so much, but i cant grow that company anymore. Its like no more challenge.

First off, congrats to my sister ( i met up with her today for long time lunch ). We havent seen each other for nearly 1 week i guess. Its strange that we meet most of the time on Wed, not on Sunday as we used to, as i hardly ever go to Newtown anymore for the mass these days. I'd rather go to my local church, or my 'someone's' local church or even go to Cathedral with Donny like last time.

My life's changed a lot. I feel like there're more challenges in front of me, THERE!! RIGHT THERE!! In my personal life, love life, organisation, uni, and least...is WORK. Lots of people say that im different now over the past one month. Why?? I still dont get it. But at the positive way, i think I AM MORE SEEN now than BEFORE. Most of people tend to treat me like a MAN rather than a Little Adolf like they used to. Im okay with that, but i too sometimes miss the old such a treatment from them. Anyway...MOVE ON.

Also, in my early age of friendship with someone. Gosh...it takes alot of me. But im lucky that im surrounded by an amazing FAMILY, and incredible friends whom i love so much. I more listen to them than hear whats 'out there'...

Today at uni. I spoke to one girl. We're in the same group for assignment. And while we had a time, we try to get close or get to know each other. I find that this girl, named CHRISTINE (from China) is so interesting. She's only 20yo. She did her HSC here. She's kinda tomboy. And what surprised me was that she first whispering on my ear..."HEY...Im SORRY, I gotta tell you this....I THOUGHT YOU"RE GAY" and i just smiled at her. And she smiled back at me. And i said..."WELL, YOU"RE NOT THE FIRST ONE, BUT IM OK"...and she said...no no no "ITS JUST BECOZ YOUR EYES!!" hmmm and it reminded me to my FRIEND CITRA DEWI. She always SAID that. SHE THOUGHT THAT I WAS GAY BECOZ OF MY EYES. and untill now, i still dont get the point, WHATS WRONG WITH MY BEAUTIFUL EYES.

And then we kept talking and talking with this young girl. I told her as well "HEY, YOU KNOW WHAT, I THOUGHT YOU're A LESBIAN!" and she smiled at me, and she whispered again "I WENT TO A GIRL HIGH SCHOOL HERE IN SYDNEY, and I FOUND THAT GIRLS WHO're TOMBOY ARE SEXY, and I LIKE THEM!!" and i asked again...."ARE YOU.....??" and SHE nodded.
And i told her, "YA KNOW WHAT, I THINK ALL OF PEOPLE WERE BORN TO BE BI SEXUAL!, BUT THEY HAVE DIFFERENT LEVEL OF HOW GAY THEY ARE, and IT DEPENDS OF THEM IF THEY WANT TO PUT UP THEIR GAY LEVEL HIGHER THAN THEIR HETERO LEVEL!" and she nodded saying YES I KNOW AND I AGREED WITH WHAT YOU SAID.

And she asked if i had a girlfriend. And i said OFFCOURSE! and she said. Ah i c....i thought you're gay thats all... and i replied again..."WELL, YOU CANT SAY IF PEOPLE ARE GAY OR NOT BY ASKING IF THEY HAVE G/F or B/F, AS SO MANY PEOPLE ARE EVEN MARRIED, and THEY STILL HAVE CASUAL ENCOUNTERS WITH THE SAME GENDER"
Again i added, IM NOT TALKING ABOUT ME Ok, IM NOT SAYING THAT IM NOT GAY OR IM GAY BY HAVING A G/F AT THE MOMENT, but JUST LETTING YOU KNOW....

So she's ok. She has a boyfriend too, but she still likes TOMBOY kinda girls. I think its interesting. And after class, we ended up going to cafe, only both of us, and had a nice chat for an hour or so, then we came back home.

She's really loaded there, back in Chinna, her dad has a MOTORCYCLE manufacturer. Very big,. But its nice to make friends with here....

Anyway, another story, my friend KASANA, from THAILAND. Very nice girl. I met her through class. This semester. We are taking two same subjects and we are always in the same group for the assignment. So i see her oftenly. Recently we got too attached to each other. Yesterday we had lunch together and i felt its like dating or something. And she asked me out one night to go to restaurant together. ....I dont mind.

Then later on, she told me that she liked me and felt that she's so close to me. I didnt know what that meant. Anyways....
Oh gosh, i dont know what to write....

BOTTOM NOTE: I miss my 'someone" geez!
Sorry ga jelas